I remember the day that you were born
So tiny and so sweet
I'd waited a whole nine months
For us to finally meet
And there you were all 6lb 13
ten fingers and ten toes
With lovely skin ,chubby cheeks
And a cute little button nose.
Two years went by
and you grew up
Getting older every year
And then came the doctors words
every parent dreads to hear.
I'm afraid your son has cancer
I'm sorry but its true
My world turned upside down that day
At the thought of losing you.
The tears they came
And you got sick
You struggled from the start
but you weren't giving up without a fight
And you fought with all your heart.
You fought with so much courage
You'd put grown men to shame
But it wasn’t right
That at just two
You had to suffer in so much pain.
I thought you were getting better Steven
But then more bad news again
I'm afraid Steven’s now terminal
As the cancer has spread behind his eye.
And that was it
all hope was gone
There was nothing more they could do
I had to face the facts
That i was definitely gonna lose you.
I never told you ,you were dying Steven
As you were only still three,
How could i tell you, you’d never see
The things you had not yet seen.
I fetched you home
Where you belonged
Tried to make the most of everyday
It isn’t an easy thing to do
As i had to watch you slowly fade away.
In the end it proved too much
And your body grew so weak
The cancer finally took you
It took you in your sleep.
And when i saw you sleeping
With the look upon your face
I knew that you were now pain free
And were in a better place.
That doesn't make it any easier though
For me now that you're gone
I miss you so much everyday
But I'm so proud to be your Mum

Jane Moore in memory of her beloved son Steven,